Monday, February 20, 2006

Mumma , I'm Home!

Home
A place you want to come back to.
A place where you feel comfortable
A place you can call yours.
What if you have no place?
No home.
You may have two but not even one.

What if it’s a place where you feel like
Your neck is being twisted till you can be aborted?
What if you don’t even have as much space
That the neighbour’s dog has.
Space
You cant breathe here
All you can do is sit next to that computer
And keep typing like its listening to you
At least it pretends to be listening to you,
Occasionally it commands you and you like that.

There is a big window right where you sit,
But its just like another reminder
Telling you about the better place outside
And look, where you sit…
Next to that computer screen.
You know you can be doing so many other things,
Need to study, need to read, need to sleep,
But all you can do is sit at the computer screen.

All the big ambitions you carry
In that little mind of yours…

How far will you go?
Not beyond the computer screen.
The computer screen the tunnel
That u try to push yourself into
To come out at Canada?
In Dixieland?
Try harder, may be you can.

Sunday, February 19, 2006

one question

this one is for all the people who have finished graduating,
or studying and have just got a job.
I just want to know
if there is a place for you at your job,
do u find yourself satisfied in some small way
at this place, in this job.
job, here could mean anything, part time, sweeping,
watching others work, etc .
This is a survey sort of thing for a post to come...
So please leave your response.

Saturday, February 18, 2006

2 mins maggi noodles

what can we fight for?
is there a new way we can see
for our world to be?
there were movements,
and changes,
there was a way
that these men saw,
wore flowers,
asked for peace,
fought for the what
they pleased,
but all we do
is sit and whine,
some just sip wine and dine...

we point with
the stems of our rosy glasses
and sigh "Oh! these masses!"

But do we think enough to see
another reality?
and place for you and me
to be happy?

simple thoughts like these
are lost in compositions magnifiques

pretty we make our movies to be
headed somewhere, are we?

Friday, February 17, 2006

J, Arent you going to write EXPERIMENTA 2006?



Summer has brought many a lovely things for me
Experimenta is here
Anyone in Bombay till this sunday
should go to Russian Cultural Centre
and watch this film festival.
I have had this privilege
since the last 2 years.
Here is a link to the schedule,
Filter India .

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Le Poète est semblable au prince des nuées
Qui hante la tempête et se rit de l'archer ;
Exilé sur le sol au milieu des huées,
Ses ailes de géant l'empêchent de marcher.

change

tomorrow a year ago.

SMS

Sugar coated tamarind tickle,
Little girl's rare popsicle,
Granny's yummy prawn pickle,
Don't think I'm fickle,
You write, I'll just giggle.

Monday, February 13, 2006

V V day


valentines day isnt for lovers
to be happy
its for people who dont have love
to be miserable.
when u have love
every morning the sun shines

tomorrow is valentines day

but you know i dont feel all that bad
i have so many memories
ill write them down with chalk on the road
may be you'll walk over them
may be you'll hear me sing
may be you will hear those things

more than words
this day brings

well... its just another day isn't it?

To J for Gay


I trusted him more than you
but what wrong did you do?
i smile as i think of you
i walked your way today too
as the warm wind blew
i think of the smoke you threw
at my face while the sun grew

the window
where we sat
me and you
looked at the sun
with my eyes
like the window does
today too

that guitar does still lie
where it did when
we played "i spy"

i think of your black trousers
and i smile
i think of your shoes
and i smile
i feel a year erased from my life
i feel S never lied
i feel he hid the colour from my eye
i think of you
and again i smile

i dont offer anything new
there look a bird flew
ill skip that rue?
no, no more i do

i walked today
the way
we marked
that yellow day
may be in may

ill meet you some way
and ill say you are gay
hee hee
how u hated that, J

J for gay

Sunday, February 12, 2006

Tragedy

Report:
One little girl is lost in the Land of the Chuppies
needs to be found and brought back to the Land of Guppies
a.s.a.p
hee hee
could you please aid me?
Salman Rush thee

Hurry!!

Last 2 Days for the shaadi pictures on my blog!
They will disappear after 2 days
yes, you are right 2 days !!
so all the people who want to see them
and havent seen them yet
see them quick!
Tuesday all the pics will be gone
by the magic of the Pink Cycle Fish.

Saturday, February 11, 2006

people

I dream and wish for a place
where there are people who are real.
where there is a simplicity
that surrounds all.
where no one ever feels alone,
lonely.
they can be on their own
when they want to.
where people feel they have someone for them.
someone they have to care about,
someone they want to care about
where they have people they can meet
without setting appointments with them
where people have friends
where people understand and care to understand
some people at least not all
and not always.
I wish there was a world where people care.
I wish they could hug each other without
getting wierd about it.
they could cuddle up and share a book
read it till they fell asleep,
spoke till
they were tired.
where people smiled
where people glowed
where that phone call wasnt important
where that meeting could be cancelled.
a world where people could be happy
with people.

i had such a world
i lost it
i look for that world in everyone of you

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Hug me

I will marry a man who promises me one hug a day,
i am so hug sick!

Thursday, January 26, 2006

26-01-2006

Happy Republic Day

Chamko Rani aka Bling Bling Queen

This shy smile character (the boy) is my cousin who is getting married with the goofy smile character on the 29th of January and has been brave enough to get married in Kaithal, Haryana which is our native place, up north, 20 minutes from Kurukshetra which is the place where the Battle of Mahabharat was fought( in the famous epic called Mahabharat!!)
So, I'm off for the next 6 days...

Ill be eating the most delicious food, and loads of it!!
Ill be wearing flashy clothes, fake hair, and clothes like bar dancers!!
Ill have a camera!! and will come back with many many pictures of the wedding
and the city!
There will be lots of desi music, dhol!!, band-baaja, lots of crazy aunties with dark maroon lipstick and loud shreaky voices, men with fat tummies and moustaches, kids with names like Nanu, Chotu, Googy, Miku, Panu! yes Panu is the name of the bride groom!!

OK i know, you are going to miss me! hee hee
Ill leave you with a preview of what I will be wearing ...

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

link to capricious confabulation

capricious confab: de-stress

fantabulous!! for all of us... go check this out.
its hilarious!

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

The Election Special: Double Digest For @$/- only

There was girl called Chamki. One day there came elections for her college's French Club...
And voila!

look she is a super hero!!
hee hee
Well this is how I'm going to be campaigning for the elections...
Go Captain Frenchie!

Sunday, January 22, 2006

Link to Deens blog.

nDee eDen: what does nothing sound like?
simple and straight
worth its weight,
reason or fate?
good or great?

Think about it...
Ill like to hear
what nothing sounds like to you.

nice thought Deen.

Saturday, January 21, 2006

I cant write anything beautiful. I feel ugly.

I want to run to the beach and scream your name out. I know tears. The sea will be comforting, for it makes no difference, it readily accepts my tears like a mother opens her arms for her baby. I want to write your name all over the sand. I want to scream your name, i want to write it all over the sand. That name which i dont let my lips utter, i cant say your name, for my mother or my father might hear it. I would tell my friends but they feel i'm sick, i'm ill. I can picture your name on sand. Your name, there for all the people to look at, for them to walk over it. I know what you think, what will this do?What does anything I do now change anyway? You didnt let me do anything. But what did you do? You wont dare to think of it. You dont feel guilty. You stole my life from me. But that doesnt matter now. Now its not about you, because I dont know you. I dont know you anymore, I still know the you I am in love with. But not the you who lies. Not the you who forgets the small things in life? Is life only for one's convenience? Is it only for one's end? Is it only for you to be what you want? I am not saying these words but merely echoing what you believe. Where is what you called 'living for other people?'. And i am not even asking for any sort of sacrifice, I simply asked you to tell me the truth. But to lie is so convenient. You call me someone who wanted to run away, what to you think about yourself? I see you, you see me and then life gets back to you. Its so convenient to not let yourself feel. I had a friend say to me the other day, if you feel you are drowning ill pull you back, and then those are the people who have their lives to live. I cant expect them to listen to what i say, obsorb all the ugly colour i spray. But you know what i said, I said i dont want to be pulled back, I will swim. Its these little things that seem like mere sentences, that change nothing in your life, but to me, they are signs all the time. They are the stories of me. I dont want you to know how long my hair has grown, I am scared. Thats why i made sure my hair was neatly tied last night. I will not let you see it. I will not take my cycle from home. Its not just your home, its mine too, and you cant make me unbelieve. I do have some control over my life. I will. I will feel pretty again, go to goa , get a hair cut and I will listen to Bjork's Medulla one day. I will write beautiful one day.


I write it all here on this page, nowhere but everywhere, noone can see it but everyone can, and its not meant for anyone but everyone can read it.

4 grams of courage

i feel ugly
you make me ugly
i feel old
this whole thing makes me grey
i want happy days again
i want to run away
i looked away
i know
i dont want to know of
the existence of people
who can lie
i dont want to know
but you are my babie no?
why did u ruin 4 years of love,
marriage
with 4 months of lie?
for what?

At Office





To EVAM,

thats me at office
EVAM, an international residency for theatre research and performance
Atuls' dream since the past 8 years, begins to take shape today
with the exhibition Tao Art Gallery.

I worked in EVAM's office till 26th September 2005.




malayalam

Friday, January 20, 2006

tsop rehtona tsuj

gninaem wen elohw a "tpelsrevo" drow eht gnivig ma i

Thursday, January 19, 2006

FTW

nettirw si tsop siht
tfel ot thgir morf
yrev siht ekil etirw i
ti depyt reven i tub netfo
krow lliw ti fi rednow I

I love sleep.
My life has a tendency to fall apart when I'm awake

Ernest Hemingway

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Monday, January 16, 2006

Chamki Flower Series Part IV

burkha girl

Mon Chapeau

Quand je porte mon chapeau gris
C'est pour aller dans la pluie.
Quand je porte mon chapeau vert
C'est que je suis en colère.
Quand je porte mon chapeau bleu
C'est parce que je suis déjà mieux.

Quand je porte mon chapeau blanc
C'est parce que je suis très content.

this is a peom in french,
i wrote

Saturday, January 14, 2006

The riverman and the saturday sun

a few months ago
i was years younger
time took my life from me
my face changed
my writing too

I dont know what i grieve for
you
me
him
the two

the same song i heard
when i went to bangalore
when we saw the huge
white wind mills
the same song i hear
when we spent endless
afternoons lazing around in
the bedshaped bed

i dont know what i grieve

its easy to put
box on box
betrayal on trust
convenience on commitment

the same song i heard
when we sat in the theatre
watched movies, passed the water
head on shoulder
whispers
the same song i tried to make you hear
but you never cared

I'm happy, fly kites
walk around sing songs
but then i get home
play this song
and grieve for love
for hope

I crave
I cry
I write
atleast I try
I cant look them in the eye
I dont want to die


no im not doing it again
and this is not a poem
but something i just put up staright
in my blog
words i sent
to float in cyber space

i was made to love magic - Nick Drake

I was born to love no one
No one to love me
Only the wind in the long green grass
The frost in a broken tree.

I was made to love magic
All it’s wonder to know
But you all lost that magic
Many many years ago.

I was born to use my eyes
Dream with the sun and the skies
To float away in a lifelong song
In the mist where melody flies.

I was made to love magic...

I was born to sail away
Into a land of forever
Not to be tied to an old stone grave
In your land of never.

I was made to love magic...
this is a song by Nick Drake

i was born to love magic

nick drake
cigarettes
books
guitar
window
air gun
this day
i remember you
guilty kisses

but i'm not sure i want those times back
i can't deal with anything
i can't deal with anyone
i dont want to be me
i can't look into their eyes

how it all began
with him
with you
then bangalore
then again
you
him
now its me
alone
but then again do i stop?
why cant i just not think when nick drake plays
its just another song
so is sting
dont look at the moon

why do we forget yet
treasure things in little pockets?
why do i see the cigarette smoke again
against the sun
while he sings
things behind the sun?
if he tells me all he knows
about the way his river flows
...

why is it such a mess in my head?
you
him
me

how they come and go.

Friday, January 13, 2006

dot to dot


try this one
are the dots in the centre the same size?
no?
check again.

did you just see them move?

silly things people do when they dont know what to do

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Profound Gibberish: Yet another useless questionnaire...

Profound Gibberish: Yet another useless questionnaire...

For all the poeple who tried to shoo a fly with the mouse pointer!!
quite funny

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

The Poet & His Discontents: The Fan

The Poet & His Discontents: The Fan

On my tour of cyber space
i collect little pieces of broken sea glass
and here is just one little bit
so... savour it

waste of time: on my way to work....

waste of time: on my way to work....

Bombays own way of letting
you know that you are just
a little part of it.
God! this is practically
everyday of my life.


this is a link to a friend aneesh's post

Sunday, January 08, 2006

poems are like cats
they have a funny way of coming to you
when you dont call them
and shying away when you want them

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

little me celeb!

1. On google image search type "divya sharma"
2. go to the second page (yeah, im not that big a celeb to be on the first)
3. see my picture in a blue sweater!!
hee hee!!
heres the link to it, for the lazy ones.
well, im not doing so bad, am i?

a whole that can be shared.

nDee eDen: a whole that can be shared.

while i'm on my break,
read some good stuff.
Nikhil (cousin) and jyoti read this one!!

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

NOTE

need time to get some churning
to end
see you guys in a couple of days,
if you are lucky
may be a post
tomorrow
but, i doubt that.

love and big bear hug,
chamki

chamki
scientific name: chamko rani


telegraph 1.45.9037

college begins
flashy new label
for notebook for the new year
i see him
the same
still on the phone
hair still long
i try to write
nothing comes to mind
broken sentences
words sometimes
life pushes to harden
i refuse to refuse
numb
jumble things around
lose what i found
new toy
new toy
silly boy
i wont be late again
new year resolution
phenobarbitone
also called
gardinol
life
blink 20
keyboard
alphabets
piano
random
boring
numb again
no effect just truth
no form
no meaning
no structure
angle?
numb again

Friday, December 30, 2005

nDee eDen: profile of a c real lliker.

These lovely little things
Deen often brings


i loved one
and i love them all
the ones that are big
and the ones that are small

the ones i have read
the ones that go above my head
i think of them even in bed
but i could never say them
how Deen has said

Deen, well said!

Here is the link to what I'm talking about.
I love this blog

Thursday, December 29, 2005

Secret Smile II

Secret Smile I


click to view

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Present Ma'am


Day after Day
May after May
I come to class
For a P instead of an A
No matter what the doctors say
I'm gonna say "I'm ok!"

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Monday, December 26, 2005

Dhak-Dhak

heart after heart
is pulled apart
each and every brain

pushes hearts down the drain


blood rushes out of the heart
as it is torn apart
and pushed down the drain
by the goddamn brains

the heart still breathes
while being pushed through the teeth
down the opening in defeat
beat after beat


in the drain pipe, stuck,
it moves with every suck
being the ugly duck
was all its luck

with every bump
it gives a thump
while blood pressure jumps
the heart still pumps


and every beat, I realize,
is the heart's voice
from the drain pipes
and while tears fall from my eyes,
the baby smiles

we all smile
with our heart
stuck deep in the drain pipes

Tic Tic part - II

A china bowl
filled with salt
lies in front of me,
yet it is so empty.

I scratch my head
as the pencil's lead
scratches the sheet
flakes of dandruff
fall at my feet.

A strand of hair
falls in my view
I push it back
a time or two
and think of what
to write or do
but thoughts infinite
and words are few.

Saturday, December 24, 2005


Santa Claus is coming to town

mErRY cHriStMas!!!
WHere is the cake ?
The sweets?
I am waiting!!
Have lots of fun,
Happy Holidays!!
And don't forget the wine!

Busy Bee's return to life

click on picture to view

Friday, December 23, 2005

To Little Noor,


from 'For Rita's Daughter, Just Born' by Eunice De Souza

Lumious new leaf
May the sun rise gently
on your unfurling

in the courtyard always linger
the smell of earth after rain

the stone of these steps
stay cool and old

gods in the niches
old brass on the wall

never the shrill cry of kites

Happy Baby to Aatoo and Sheebee

MISSION PRIORITIZE


for all my class mates

here is one advice
you shouldn't miss


yes-yes
i have joined the gang!

where?

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

.


I never saw
You are older
Your heart colder
But children don't grow up

Sunday, December 11, 2005

I'm chamki


who divya?
who pooka?
who chimni?
who bailee minogue?
who sunshine?
who powerpuff?
what about the
taste of you upon my lips
your fingers in my brain?
what about the bakery on the ground floor?
what about the massage parlour on the first floor?
what about our trip to goa?

who booboo doll?
who whore vulture?
who babie?

what red sofa?
where?
its all there.
its all there.

but im no more.
I'm chamki
do you know me?

Saturday, December 10, 2005

you are my sunshine

The other night
As I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you
Held you in my arms
Well, but when I woke up this morning
I found out I was mistaken
Do you know that I hung my
I hung my head and cried
you are my sunshine
you are my sunshine
Oh, my only sunshine
my only sunshine
you make me happy
When my skies are grey
you'll never know dear
you'll never know, dear
How much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine
My sunshine away

feb 2003

I am not interested in their faces
A face it doesnt tell you anything
It may be that of a clerk
who insignificantly performs his duty
in some dark office...

25th september 2005

Love is dismal, lover so precious,
Love an answer so fallacious,
Love is death, yet
No kiss for even my last breath.
(by the poet)

Friday, November 25, 2005


im trying stunts on photoshop for the weekly!!!